Stuck in the Middle

So I'm stuck in the middle of what may turn out to be a messy divorce. My friend and her husband (my boyfriends brother) have recently been having trouble. Mostly because of her. She got it in her head that she doesn't love him and wants a divorce. He's talked her into finishing her schooling (basically till after this semester) before actually divorcing, but she refuses to even try to work it out. And this makes me so mad because I think she's making a huge mistake. Her husband is a great guy and he's bending over backwards trying to find a way to fix things. And she keeps pointing out his 'flaws' to him and saying he refuses to change, well she refuses to change! She refuses to go out and find new friends in a new town. She refuses to go out and join a group where she might meet people. Which in turn makes her miserable, and she gets snippy with him and then he gets snippy right back, which makes her mad and so she goes all bitchy on him.

Ugh, and honestly I want to side with him because I think she's making a mistake and jumping the gun. Oh and did I mention that for the last 4 months he's been in Iraq? So they got married in the summer just before he got shipped out and now she wants a divorce. Somehow I think she's just lonely and misses him.

GRRR! I'm so mad about all this because they're both my friends and I hate seeing them in this kind of place in their lives! I feel bad for her hubby because he's the one getting the short end of the stick with all this, but I don't want to not be friends with her. I care about them both equally but it's hard when you see one hurting the other so much over something that may not even be real but something that only she perceives as real.

And I'm probably not making much sense. I'm frustrated and upset that I'm in the middle of this, but because of my position as a friend to both parties is stretching me a bit thin.

Back in School and Surprisingly Happy

I started back for fall semester this week. Normally I cringe whenever I walk down the halls at the sight of all these size 2 girls draped over guys arms, and doing the whole giggle and be shallow routine. Mind you not all the girls are like that, but it just seems like I see so many of them. Well that was last year. ^_^ This year I walk down the halls and am able to ignore them. Why? Because someone calls me beautiful, and I believe him.

Last year I'd sit and feel miserable at tables in the cafe as all around me it seemed like all these girls, who I thought were prettier than me due to the fact that they were all thin, had someone that thought they were desirable. Mind you I wasn't envious of any one of them in particular over any one guy. I can honestly say I haven't seen one of these girls with someone that I would like to be involved with in any way. I just felt terrible over the fact that they seemed to be able to find a person who was interested in them while I was stuck in a corner.

This year, I really don't care. It very rarely crosses my mind to be unhappy while I'm on campus anymore, because I know when I go home I have something to look forward too. And this semester especially I have something to look forward to as my boyfriend is coming to see me in October over my birthday. So more often than not I'm not thinking about how these skinny girls are all prettier than I am, I'm thinking about when he's coming to see me or just thinking about him in general. So I usually end up walking around between classes with a goofy grin on my face.

So yeah this isn't exactly about weight, but when someone says you're gorgeous and you can believe them, it's a good feeling and can change your entire outlook. It gives you the confidence you need to lift your head high and basically tell society's idea of pretty to shove it.